Complicated. There are a lot of complicated things in this world. Things you can never figure out. Life is complicated. Humans are complicated. I guess I’m complicated too. It seems like nobody can figure me out. Can I figure myself out? Let’s try.
No 1. I hate sitting in a room with the air-conditioner on full blast. But I don’t like the hot sticky weather either.
No 2. I don’t have a sweet-tooth but I LUV chocolate ice-cream.
No 3. I eat fruits but I rather not eat any products made from fruits.
No 4. I know I do show respects to those I think deserve it and I want them to respect me in return. No matter who they are (Who the hell do I think I am??? Right?)
No 4. I can’t drink boiled water (well that doesn’t make me complicated, just down-right weird!)
There are many more…too many small details to list down. The question is…does anybody shares the same crazy habit I have????? Anybody? *sighs* I guess not. Well like I said it’s small details. One BIG major point I’m too stupid to figure out on my own.
No……: I’m a people person but I can’t stand being with FaMiLy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m friendly, I get along with most people easily but not my own family. Don’t get me wrong…I don’t hate them, I just can’t stand them. Especially my mom…whenever she in the same room with me, I can get mad as easily as someone breathe.
Trust me I really tried to be fair, to be respectful but it’s hard. The things she did, the things she didn’t do. It leaves me hanging by myself thinking “Am I that bad? Do I suck that much at being a daughter? Do you resent me for being daddy’s little princess? What?? What is it that you hate so much that you don’t mind ignoring me most of the time?????” Believe me when I say it’s even harder than learning Arabic. And I’m BAD at Arabic…
Half of it IS my fault; I can’t deny that but what about the other half??? Who’ll take the blame? Can I even put it on others? That will remain a question to me 4ever.
For those who know what I’m going through…thank you for understanding.
For those who think I’ve violated the law of nature…I ask for your forgiveness.
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